Below are
some thoughts of a Singaporean driven to despair by a thoughtless nation that
don’t believe in looking after its own citizens. Why would they, would they
know the pathetic tales of Singaporeans being ousted by heartless policies,
regardless of nationality in employment? Why would they have time for daft
Singaporeans when they are all busily counting their millions? It makes one wonders what the fuck is a country
and nation all about when citizens are sacrificed in favour of foreigners.
Those people
in MOM must think responsibly, that every employment pass they issued there is
one sad Singaporeans begging to be employed. Maybe the MOM is run by foreigners
or new citizens who believed that foreigners deserved the jobs as they are
better, regardless of nationality? How can a country, a nation, degenerate to
such a state when citizens no longer matters and foreigners come first? At
least half a million foreigners having better jobs not the they were better but
through the stupidity of fools in charge.
And after
spending a small fortune to get a university degree, hoping to give the parents
a better life as a filial chlld, one ends up earning $9 a day as a temp staff,
with a degree to boot.
Ask who you
voted for and why you voted for them and what are they doing for you or against
you. Read on. This article is in Gilbert’s www.transitioning .org blog.
Dear Counselor,
Please pardon me for my incoherent thoughts. I have just recovered from a
bout of crying. I have been sleeping late and waking up late the past few
weeks. If I remain unemployed… Who knows? I don’t dare to imagine my ending. To
cut a long story short, I hate myself for being so STUPID.
I have
always been the type highly likely to end up unemployable. Now, thanks to my
own stupidity, I have made myself unemployable.
I have sent out so many cover letters (customized) plus CV to various
companies and job agencies so far. No news!
Thought #1: Why should I work? I want to live a meaningful life by
contributing whatever God-given skills/talents/abilities that I possess to
society. I want to
孝顺 my parents. I must accumulate $$$$$ in my CPF account,
otherwise I will be penniless when I am old and ill. Even if I get rid of all
my expenses, I still have to pay insurance premiums. Now then I realize that
earning $9/hr beats earning nothing.
Thought #2:After my A Levels, the only temp job that I managed to secure was
fast food crew member. I performed so badly that I received lots of
screaming/scolding and not even one single compliment. I quit after three weeks
and spent the rest of my post-A Levels break volunteering every Saturday at
BLAHBLAHBLAH. I love BLAHBLAHBLAH so much that I told myself that I won’t quit
it unless it asks me to leave. (Yup, I’m still volunteering at BLAHBLAHBLAH.)
You might be wondering why I haven’t asked any of my fellow volunteers for job
opportunities and so on. Reason #1: I doubt that they are able to help. We are
acquaintances, not friends. Reason #2: Pride. They are highly likely to view me
as stupid and incompetent if I tell them that I’m currently unemployed.
Thought #3: During my 1
st uni break, I secured a temp job through
100% luck, although my preferred explanation is that God had answered my
prayers. My dad’s colleague quit her job so my dad brought me into the company
as a temp while the company was busy searching for a permanent replacement.
However, soon after I left, the boss revised company policy—no more 裙带关系.
By the way, this company is now struggling to survive. My dad’s own rice bowl
is at risk, therefore I ought to work!
Thought #4: Oh, please don’t ask me which uni I graduated from. I don’t feel
like blaming my joblessness on it. Let me give you a clue… In 2011 (the year I
entered uni), a girl committed suicide allegedly because she was sad that the
only uni acceptance letter that she received was from this particular uni. I
feel sad whenever people say that my uni teaches useless stuff. Sometimes my dad
discusses work-related stuff with me. He says that my insights are good. I
always tell him those good insights aren’t from me, I’m merely parroting what
my uni modules have taught me.
Thought #5: During my 2
nd uni break, I secured a temp job through
a job agency and yet another temp job through “cold e-mailing”. I can only
secure jobs through the abovementioned means because I have NO friends. I’m
bullied/hated/ostracized from kindergarten till JC, no wonder I’m friendless. I
独来独往-ed
in uni. (To be fair, I do have seniors/peers/juniors who were nice towards me
and teachers who doted on me. My JC classmates who hated me throughout JC 1
softened their stance towards me in JC 2 without rhyme or reason and started
treating me very nicely. However, I’m so traumatized by my experiences that I
deleted all teachers’ and schoolmates’ contact numbers. I almost committed
bullycide in primary sch and later in JC.) I have lost count of sources stating
that most jobs (at least 80%) are secured through friends. I have no friends,
how to secure anything good?!
Thought #6: I slacked throughout uni while slipping in and out of
depression. I recovered from depression in my 3
rd year, but I still
slacked. Stupid me.
Thought #7: I have lots of horror stories involving counselors. However,
several years ago, a call that I made to SAMH hotline restored my faith in
counseling. I forgot everything that the SAMH hotline counselor told me, I only
remembered that she saved me from losing my sanity completely.
Thought #8: When I was studying in uni, I was very sure that I would pursue
WSQ PDECCE (Childcare) upon graduation. Stupid me. I can’t sing or dance or
play sports, how to educate children in these aspects? Oh, when I applied
through ABC Institute, somehow I managed to receive SMSes about job interviews
but not e-mails containing the details. I found out from its staff that my
e-mail address always bounces its e-mails back. Hmm, maybe God is stopping me
from becoming a childcare teacher. Anyway, I was already working at XXX when this
Institute contacted me. When I was temping (illegally) as a childcare assistant
at one particular childcare center after “cold e-mailing” various childcare
centers in my neighborhood, the most senior teacher there (plus every member of
her clique) hated me to the core. The childcare center fired me for losing my
temper at some of the children. You see lah, I don’t even have the aptitude to
become a childcare teacher lah, so stupid.
Thought #9: I fantasize about working as an Admin Executive But I lack relevant
experience, so I ought to secure an Admin Assistant position first before
working my way up, right? Why no news? I suspect that one reason is that when
employers see my degree, they wonder why this particular person is applying for
a position that she is over-qualified for—she must be blindly spamming CVs. (I
happily accepted my
$9/hr six-months temp job at XXX after uni
graduation because I wrongly assumed that I will be converted to perm one day
and then I can start working my way up.)
Thought #10: My responsibilities at XXX were so niche that I doubt that my
job there involves any transferable skill.
Thought #11: I’m very stupid. I made many mistakes at every single job that
I have ever held. Let us take XXX as an example. On the surface, I exceeded targets
for Quality, Productivity and Attendance every month. I was 100% punctual, lol.
In reality, I was a slow learner (my OJT spanned three weeks whereas my
predecessors’ OJT spanned two weeks at most) and careless. I’m so slow that the
only way for me to finish my tasks within SLA (service level agreement) is to
stay behind and work for free. My colleagues (especially my IC) urged me to
seek clarification whenever possible to avoid more mistakes. I took their
advice. My dad told me that my IC was probably secretly annoyed with me because
I sought clarification from her so frequently. OMG, I want to be employed, but
it seems that I’m doing society a greater favor by remaining unemployed. Why my
weaknesses outnumber my strengths? For example, my handwriting sucks. It is
babyish when I write slowly and illegible when I speed up.
Thought #12: I started job-hunting after my final uni exams. Two weeks
later, I secured my XXX job through a job agency. ABC Institute was dreadfully
slow in contacting me (as previously mentioned in Thought #8.) Several days
after I accepted XXX’s offer, I declined a $1.6k offer from a
三人 (two men and
one woman) company that interviewed me before XXX did. Its location was very
far-flung. I was supposed to replace the woman. Once the woman has finished
serving her notice period, I will be left alone with the two men. Quite
dangerous. (Wow, I digressed.)
Thought #13: Even though I’m UNDER-EMPLOYED, I appreciated everything that
XXX offered except the low pay. As far as I know, I think that I managed to get
along with everybody in my dept. (What an achievement! I think that I even
managed to get along with my fellow trainees who were subsequently deployed to
various depts.) My parents urged (and my “shifu” who gave me OJT) hinted that I
should job-hunt while serving my six-month contract at XXX, but I ignored them.
I wrongly assumed that even if XXX doesn’t want to convert me to perm, at least
it will renew my contract as a temp.
Thought #14.1: Due to automation, my dept’s workload was reduced by 66.6%.
When my contract expired, I told my boss that I was interested in staying on.
According to her, her boss instructed that I will continue working in my dept
(and receive my $9/hr pay from the job agency) while waiting for my temp
contract to be renewed three weeks from the original contract’s expiry date. I
verbally accepted XXX’s decision to transfer me to some other dept (the dept
having the highest turnover) once the new contract is signed.
Depressed